patience is not a virtue, it's a life necesity

dear you,

at the moment, I don't know who you are, where you are, whats your name or even what you look like.
i don't know if your fun and out going or shy and modest.
you probably wont know me either in that case.
or perhaps we do know each other but just don't realize how important we are yet.
all I know is that when we do meet,
time itself will stop.
my heart will melt with love,
and our lives will never be the same. :)
so whoever you are, i'm waiting <3


i was kinda inspired to do this by sberry who did something similar :P

love is evil ill show you spell it backwards.....lol i forgot to title this post

i know you need paatience and love cant be rushed
but that still doesnt numb the pain of being crushed
i try and i try and yet still i fail
my broken heart leaves a long bloody trail
i knew full well that his would end wrong
but the problem is that my heart isnt strong
when it comes to emotion i can be cold as stone
but the the strongest rock weeps when it feels so alone
maybe its stupid maybe its silly
i got a long life to live and thats the truth really

what use is a half when you dont have a whole
50% is a big chunk of my soul
all i can do is hope that your out there
and maybe one day i wll find you somewhere
and when i do then life will be great
but im not sure how long i can wait.

let me break it down explain the situation
in thi slife theres plenty of temptation
when its been so long your mind fill with desperation
then you turn to senseless flirtation
you go through a psycological mutation
untill you decide to enact a cessation

every day we face a series of choices
our conscience speaks, you know those good and bad voices
keep in mind there is no fury like gods wrath
will you chose the proper path
only you can do whats right
and the devil aint going down without a fight

what im trying to say is i just wanna feel complete
and im sick and tired of having to compete
im sick and tired of feeling so alone
like life is for me and me alone
im sick of watching all my friends get hitched
and constantly being rejected or ditched
by those i thought i liked alot
and fade in their memories as their memories of me rot
people tell me be patient but their taken already
the longer i wait the more my heart grows heavy
to find her on my own is apparently a crime
because thaey say its a test but it cant be every time

still ill sit here and wait, rejeccted again
using a creative outlet to releive the pain
and ill try try again but itll all be in vain
then ill silently weep till im numb and insane
like my heart is a dragon that the night called love has slain

so i sit and i wait
i wait here for you
this person i wait for i do not know who
but im not alone and they feel it too
she knows exactly all the crap that ive been through
and when we finally meet she will say i do


k well this is inspred from me haveing multiple crushes and all of them end up being taken some secertly some publicly and other hooking up right after i develop feelings for them =( ya my life sux this is basicly a prayer, an ode to hoping tht one day, hopefully sooner rather then later ill find her.. because lets face it, as much as i wanna ignore tht feeling im a teen with raging hormones who is almost a legal adult, im growing up and moving further in life and finding a partner is part of tht whole proces, so if your a nice muslim girl in the gta then ring me up yo ;P